Mother Barbara, ministers to those with childhood pain and issues, some emotional pain take years to be completely eradicated, some scars run deeper than most, they can be healed by God's power. Author Barbara Sword Turner like many others is no different, as she looks back into the years of emptiness, and suffering, and a lack of necessities of things others take for granted. She and her siblings, were scarce of the kind of love that produces, well balanced emotionally strong and capable children. She's always heard, you don't miss what you never had, she did. Never having what was vital when growing up, it left a void, neglect, and low self-esteem. The trauma, of not being able to attend school because of lack. Her search for love, led her to the wrong people and places, the bitter root grew and infiltrated her judgment and visions of life. This book will cause you to be inspired and motivated, Barbara's moving memoir will impact lives forever. The readers will find the courage to look into their past and let go of what is not needed, and receive from Christ what is needed and embrace it! A painful life is design to work for your good.