During the year before Matt passed, he tried to teach me about our personal accounts. I refused to learn, thinking it might jinx his health. I refused to entertain any thoughts that he will be leaving me soon. Then the day came and I fell to pieces. I couldn't eat or sleep, my life changed. It was so hard to start all over. I never left the house for months. I couldn't even go outside in the sun. I cried out to God for help to get up, fight and get back my life. Then all kind of signs came to me. This book will help you restore back your life at your pace with your Holy Spirit. Everyone has their own story. This book is giving you a blueprint of how I walked each step after a devastating event of loss to God's victory to start living again. I was born in Hawaii into a family with a father that fought during the World War II. It was after the Pearl Harbor attack. He was in the military in the 442 Regimental Combat Team. He was my first model to learn how to fight my emotions. I am not a professional writer, but I know I am a child of God. Matt persuaded me to go back to college. He told me, I needed to value myself with confidence in my life. He promised to take care of me in every way. My English teacher told me, I had a flair in writing and I should look into that. I forgot about that until after Matt passed away and he was always my most promising subject. This is my first book, but with God's assistance and the love for people who are loss, I will move forward.