In a debut novel as emotionally raw as it is uncanny, a tragic love story unfolds against the complicated backdrop of Hollywood's elite, where the line between reality and fantasy blurs under the modern tension of the civilian and celebrity worlds.
Deathwish
and
Fantasy
author Ben Fama brings a poet's sensibility to his highly original and delicate debut novel.
If I Close My Eyes
showcases Fama's demonstrated skill for startling visual imagery, emotional depth and caustic satire, all woven into a tragic narrative as real as it is otherworldly.
The novel tells the story of two strangers who begin an affair after surviving a mass shooting at a Kim Kardashian book signing. Lust and pleasure fuel the romance between a 19-year-old aspiring screenwriter and a 30-year-old struggling actress over the backdrop of our fast-paced, digital world. Set in Los Angeles and New York City, playing out through text message banter, trashy tabloid stories and other appropriated forms,
presents the story of two damaged bodies whose lives briefly touch and are forever changed as a result. Humorous and melancholy, simultaneously satirical and deadpan,
is for readers of Bruce Wagner, Bret Easton Ellis and even Evelyn Waugh.
A true poet's novel, beautiful yet deliberate,
comes undone with each turn of the page, peeling back every artifice facing us and showing us ourselves, stripped of our narratives, naked except for our desires. Fama pulls us into his spiral with ease, offering humor and devastation with each card dealt to us, and the chaos feels as intrinsic yet mysterious to us as our own bodies.
makes us question: What do we do when fantasy abandons us?
"Imagine a young Bret Easton Ellis with a heart, if you can, and that's Ben Fama. With devastating compassion for his dissolute characters, Fama extracts truths about contemporary pop culture that feel original and bold, even as they come at the cost of some unfortunate young people's grasping, heartbreaking, sometimes hilarious lives. Every sentence is a twisty, poetic pleasure, but never at the expense of the plot. I treasured every weird-ass page."
-Emily Gould, author of
Perfect Tunes
"Ben Fama's debut novel
is David Cronenberg's
Maps to the Stars
meets Chris Kraus'
Summer of Hate
-come for the acute Hollywood satire and stay for the dreamy love story. I adored this book."
-Anna Dorn, author of
Exalted
"A playful and ultra-contemporary story in which Fama's prose sparkles."
-Rachel Rabbit White, author of
Porn Carnival
"A thoughtful ... vivid tale."
-Kirkus