Brenda, a fascinating young African woman who due to fear of how most African women are being treated by their husbands developed a strong and unquenchable desire to marry a Caucasian. Dieter, her first German love used her to sooth his pain. She tried to kill the desire of wanting only European men but it had gotten into her system like an addictive drug. It was too late for her to go cold turkey or kill the consuming desire as she has turned into a Teutonomaniac. Andreas, her second experience was a German monster who left her in the hands of death and just when she was about to embrace death, Lars turned up. Even though she was so careful, he still managed to pull down all her emotional defences and left her with a memory she will never forget. Every road she took in search of her European love, made life happen to her in ways she never expected. Her experiences with Dieter, Andreas and Lars left her heart, soul and body needing a surgery. Her family and friends couldn't yank her from her destructive choice no matter how much they tried. Will she eventually win the battle between herself and her choice? Will it get worse for her? Or is there a soul surgeon that will heal her soul? ***This novel will put you on pins and needles; it contains adult language, brief periods of violence and sexual content. Not intended for readers under the age of 18***