If it doesn't kill you, it will only make you stronger. This is a very real truth if you can put strong suicidal thoughts in your past. My life has been a journey of understanding who I am because of my childhood being interfered with by a pedophile. The sad thing is I am not alone and there are many more people with worst experiences then mine. May my views on how to understand how emotional pain can affect how we react without knowing why, help you or someone you know, move forward.