What happens to the girl when the refuge she finds is holding both the key to her happiness and secrets that may cause her even more pain? Amelia feels as if she has lost everything. Her mother blames her for her step-dad's death. She just broke up with her toxic boyfriend. She has no idea where to go from here. Her mental health is at an all-time low. Attending a party the first weekend of summer, she meets the very sexy, very charming, Finn Jones. What better way to distract from internal pain than to have a friend with very steamy benefits? Soon, chaos erupts, and her life may be in danger. She finds security in her growing affection for Finn but soon discovers that lies and secrets are flooding her life from every direction. Finn's love has a stipulation. He is a package deal with the four other men that he lives with, one of which secretly holds a truth about Amelia's life. One man is falling for her, one wants to push her to her limits, one has no interest in her, and one hates her being part of their world. Amelia now has a choice to make; leave this life and everyone involved to fight on her own, or dive head first into the unknown to see if it just might save her. -Not Him, Us is a mature college/new adult romance. It depicts enemies-to-lovers/love-hate and Instant-love themes. This is a reverse harem novel, meaning the main character has more than one love interest. This novel contains BDSM themes, murder, violence, abuse, acts of light stalking, mental illness and acts related to such, sexual assault, cheating (supporting character), drug use, and drugging without consent.