To all my dear readers In 2020 I have decided to write my autobiography, which I had in mind for 20years. When Covid 19 hit us and made us to just sit at home, so I have decided to take this opportunity and let my dream for so long come to the reality. First I have started to write it in Farsi, with the thought to translate it later in English and Dutch but I never thought that as time passes by I will decide to do it just in English and Dutch . So, after a year I started to just write it in English then a good Dutch friend got on board with me to translate it from English to Dutch and she has done a good job of that with so many good experience from her old works which was similar to mine. I have tried very hard that the outcome be the best of my abilities as far a the English language and literature is concern. But I am not highly educated in English language just a few years I have done in England for banking business. Because of my love to this language, I have learned it for so many years myself, without living in England. What I am trying to say here, is that every sentences could be put in so much better content if I had that knowledge and education in literature, I wish I had . I hope my editor will help me in this matter, to bring it in complete and updated form where it is necessary. The most important part is that I want you all to feel and witness the pain and challenges that I had whole my life as a woman till this day. Maybe the face of the problem is different from what you had but at the end of the day it is our problems. Thank you all I hope meanwhile you enjoy this book. With regards SHAUKAT