What does this life really mean? We all think we know, but do we? Look at the world. How did it come to be? How did you come to be able to read this? How many events that seem to have nothing to do with you or me, got us to this point in what we call time/space or reality? Why is it if 10 people witness the same accident, they will report 10 different versions that many times contradict each other, but if you put those people under hypnosis, they give more accurate reports that do agree with each others? I have been asking questions about life, god, religion, death, suicide, near-death experience, purpose, philosophies, dreams, higher Self, shamanism, spirit, magic and relationships for many years. These are my journals in book form. Some things may seem unreal or far fetched. All I can say is that this is my journey, which has only just begun. To warn you, the grammar is weak, but I tried to stay true to my journals wording. English was not my favorite subject.