Katherine Ketcham devoted four decades to researching and writing about addiction—but none of that prepared her for what she would face in her relationship with her own son. is a raw and moving memoir of heartbreak, healing, and profound transformation. “This book is not about Ben and his addiction journey, nor is it about the ‘demon’ that I lived with in my mind for all those years,” she writes. “This book is about the Big Know-It-All Who Realizes She Doesn’t Know a Damn Thing. Except this one daunting truth—the only life I can save is my own.”