Your loved ones are not gone; you just can't see them until you know Jesus Christ. When you accept him and the holy ghost into your mind body and soul. You will be walking in heaven with them all right here from this earth.
The journey is long, it is hard, and it is scary. It is never easy to face the ghosts of your past, but the only way to move on to a happy and fulfilling life, you must first give up control of what you believe to be right.