I hope I can activate your heart by letting you know that your life is worth living because you have value and you have purpose. Get rid of the negative thoughts in your head and start thinking about knowledge, truth, wisdom and love. Yes, life can be so challenging and frustrating but this world needs you right now. Your friends, family, and teammates need you to get well and pull through because they know you have so much to offer to the world. Suicide should NEVER be an option because there are many other alternatives to solving your problems. I don't know what's going on in your life right now but I encourage you to not put worldly things on a pedestal and don't let them define who you are. In order to keep your life in order, create a much larger vision for yourself.