This book, first, is to honor my beautiful daughter Kelsie, who's words, doodles and thoughts cover these pages. Kelsie was the love of my life and my every heartbeat, beautiful talented, goofy, silly, but also tormented by her own thoughts of deep depression anxiety, low self esteem hopelessnes, all which were the root of her addiction. And to bring knowledge and awareness to Fentanyl poisoning, this poison is claiming over 300 lives a day. My hope is this book gives insight into the thoughts that go on in the mind of someone struggling in life. Addiction is a disease. There is hope. Fentanyl claimed her beautiful soul in the form of a fake Xanax someone gave her. It was not Xanax at all, but a fake pill that was laced with Fentanyl. Secondly, this is for the millions of young people like her, struggling to find themselves in this world, numbing their pain hoping it will all go away but it doesn't. Cling to hope, your family, talk to your parents, even if you can't see the good in you, trust others when they tell you it's there.