Book Description. The true story of my addiction to cocaine and meth and the control it had over my life for over ten years. Beginning at three when my brother dies in a car accident to my first incarceration and beyond. It is gritty and brutally honest, and sometimes uncomfortable to read. Discover the events that lead me away from a promising career in football college to a prison cell. I care for nothing, including my mortality. I willingly risk losing the respect of family and friends to take and supply drugs. During all of this, I had a child, and even that didn't change my ways. This story will enlighten you on the mindset of an addict and the control addiction has over you.