Life is what you make of it." If I had not told myself this a thousand times, it was probably more. But, my life that I was trying to make started crashing in on me and I didn't know why. What's worse is nothing I was doing to try to fix my life was causing the change I so desperately needed. Even worse is the fact that I had not done anything bad or wrong to deserve all of these things! Since my problems were not important to anyone (so it seemed), and I could not find anyone to really listen to me, suicide seemed to be my only way out of my turmoil. The main problem with that was, if I did commit suicide, who would listen to me then? And, people will just go back to life as usual after shedding a few tears. But, I decided to drop all of that nonsense because....... I want to live!