In " ", Kyla invites her readers into the dark places of her mind. She reveals her struggles with gender confusion, rejection and abuse and how shame took root and caused her to run away from God. Kyla's identity was consumed by her life as a homosexual. The conflict of growing up in a Christian home and living a life that was contrary to the Christian belief, caused her to develop unhealthy coping mechanisms that led to addiction. She was angry at God because she believed He gave her the wrong identity. Kyla played the role of a male, and looked to women, alcohol and drugs in attempts to fill the void in her heart. October 7, 2017, she came face to face with her redeemer. God met Kyla in her darkness and shined His everlasting light. He spoke to her three phrases. "I'm not ashamed of you. I love you. I have more for you." This book is Kyla's journey to victory.