Following the tragic and unexpected death of his former wife of eighteen years, the author reflects on his life with her; whether the bitter was in fair proportion to the sweet. He was entranced seeing her the first time. Their feverish romance led to a rushed and chaotic wedding and soon their daughter. Their story was the heartrending attempts leading to a second child and her frustrated attempts at perfecting her life. Struggling with fertility problems along with confidence and career troubles, the couple moves around the country in search of solutions. After years of effort attempting to build the perfect life, the marriage ends in infidelity and divorce. Suddenly being a single father, while resurrecting his trust and confidence in humanity, he has to balance his needs with his children's in order to keep both parents in their lives. Excerpt from the book: "The email from him to my wife began: 'My beloved friend and confidant' - which strangely did not jab my gut right away, since the first emotional response to death and dying is denial. It arrived as a cold-hearted explanation of the last year of increasing distance between me and my wife, and petty fault finding about her less than perfect husband...I read on. 'Let's make sure we have plenty of time for us and a lot of time for making love.' That was the sentence that drove metal electrodes into my heart, and the last phrase of the email slammed closed a switch to send a thousand amps of electricity eviscerating my heart: 'I love you' was the ending."