"I will always love you. I will never leave you..." Richard Herzog heard those sweet words from his high school teacher just three months after his sixteenth birthday. Love and security were two missing pieces of his childhood, and Richard wanted and needed them more than anything. But those words would haunt him for nearly forty years. Raised in the "City that Care Forgot," and in an environment which taught less than it cared, Richard spent his formative years helping and supporting others-friends, neighbors, and an English teacher. After a student placed a condom box on the teacher's desk, Richard felt compelled to help her. He was an ordinary freshman attempting an extraordinary feat, but she was no ordinary person. A former college homecoming queen, she was smart, beautiful, and had a passion for literature-and one student. She had taken her marriage vows, her degree, and her knowledge to an all-male Catholic school located one mile south of the Mississippi River, where the Big Muddy runs west until it bends north into the setting sun. What began as platonic progressed into a period in which she weaved him into a web of sex, lies, and broken promises. After she had ended the relationship, Richard spiraled down a destructive path, until he crossed the bridge onto the road of twelve-step recovery. Honest, painful, and often funny, is a beautifully written memoir that tells a story of lost innocence, sexual abuse, addiction, perseverance, and ultimately redemption.