The love lies began at the age of six. When her mother died, Carin told herself she was the reason she lost her mother's love. As an adult, she based relationships with others on her false ideas, making her a prime target for manipulating, narcissistic personalities. In her marriage, her habit of deception melded with his manipulative lies. He took everything she gave and more as an autoimmune condition began to plague her early and throughout the twenty-year marriage. She gave everything she could until there was nothing left to give. Although she found the strength to leave, the disease came back two years later with an ultimatum: either learn to love yourself or lose your life. In the ambulance, for the first time, Carin began to see her love lies. shares Carin's vulnerable tale with understanding for the abused and the abuser to guide us all toward the truth of love.